I call myself 'Neutrino' – ‘cos I'm here but never seen.
A particle in this great world; though you'd never know I'd been.
For so much of the time it seems that I just need to hide;
For days on end I stay indoors, and never go outside.
I cannot do all that I’d like: my health does not permit it.
It’s so frustrating all the time: it’s true – I must admit it!
And yet I get great joy from what I can do while in here;
Whether making songs, or gaming, or drinking ‘grizzly’ beer!
The cards are dealt, in each one’s life, and we have to live with them.
We start off well, then something happens, and we cope with what’s given.
I had an accident back then, and my life changed for ever!
With tumours and a damaged leg, I’m really not so ‘clever.’
And yet life can be wonderful, no matter how I feel.
The world is still alive out there: I want to have my fill!
And so, when I can handle it, I go out in the square,
With my camera, and a keen eye, grab photos I can share.
On days when I’m not paralysed, I get into my car,
Turn right out of the car park, for the Dacia Boulevard.
A van pulls out in front of me – and this I’ve had before –
The dashboard camera falls off, shows a nice view of the floor!
I want to chase the storms that loom, and be cooled by their rain;
But all that ever happens is that I still feel great pain!
The heat and hurt still haunt me, despite all that I try;
But still I come home happy: at least I tried to fly!
The cards are down, in my own life, and I have learned to cope well.
I’d started fine, then something happened, and it all became hell.
I need quite frequent surgery, and lots of medication –
But I know how to deal with it, with no more desperation.
And life is really wonderful, regardless how I‘ve felt.
The world is now my oyster ‘spite the poor cards I’ve been dealt.
So, now when I can handle it, I go out for a drive,
With cameras to capture just how much I feel alive!
I'm visible!
credits
released November 12, 2021
Lyrics: JWard-L
Music: neutrinoP
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